RIP Dime

I was pretty shocked when I found out the new that dimebag darrell had been shot and killed on stage on wednesday, I didn't find out till the next morning when a girl at work said her husband was depressed because his favorite guitar player of all time had just been killed, and I asked her who it was. I was very surprised because I just don't picture something that extreme happening so easily. Dimebag has done some goddamn amazing things with the guitar, and didn't seem to be letting up anytime soon, but of course thats all changed. I've been reading a lot of articles about the shooting, and also a lot of statements issued by both fans and other music artists.. and it is without question that the guy was just awesome, both with his musical talent and also just as a person living life to the fullest. What happened wednesday night is complete and total bullshit, and makes me wonder how shit like this can still happen these days, and why? How is it so easy for these lunatics to just kill someone in cold blood for no fucking reason other than what they've come up with in their whacked out minds? Its good to know the piece of shit got it in the end, though I would have preferred they do something more "medieval" like putting him on the rack or perhaps draw and quarter him.

I know anyone who reads my blog aren't all fans of heavy metal, but I'm sure everyone accepts and respects someone so dedicated to their love and the people around them, that you all can see how sad and tragic this event is. He had been in bands with his brother Vinnie since the early 80's and they were both in Pantera, and recently Damageplan since the Pantera breakup. Vinnie plays drums, and imagine seeing that happen to your own brother right in front of you on stage or anywhere else.. I feel horrible for him, I couldn't even imagine something like that nor would I want to.

Anyway I'm gonna wrap this up, but even if you're not into heavier music.. you should at least listen to this guy play the fuckin guitar.. jesus man, he's awesome! I'd recommend "Cowboys from hell", "Vulgar display of power" and "Far beyond driven" by Pantera.. those albums really showcase his talents.. anyway, later! \m/

I feel gross

Yeah so for the past few weeks I've basically been slacking, by not going to the gym like I have been for the past year and a half or so, and on top of that.. eating shit I probably shouldn't be eating. For those who don't know.. since august of 2003, I've been going to the gym on a regular basis and have made some good progress I'm quite proud of, no more skinny Rob. Before I started hitting the gym, I usually weighed around 175 or so and was just shy of 6'3".. and actually I was pretty skinny. Since then I've brought my weight up to average anywhere from 210 to 220.. generally staying around 215, so I'm reaching my goals and thats good.

So the reason I feel gross is the fact that for the last few weeks or almost a month.. I haven't really been motivated to go to the gym.. and its because of things that have happened recently, various things that put me in a bad mood and therefore I cannot motivate myself to go to the gym. This pisses me off because I've been working my ass off all this time, and my progress has come to a stand still, and I actually look like I shrank a bit.

However, by the end of the month I will be starting to get back on schedule, and I will start hitting it hard again because working out is what keeps me happy and in a good mood, plus my health has become pretty important to me... now if only I could motivate myself to get a new job, seeing as I despise my current position. Thats something I'll discuss later, until then..

a lot to cover!

Ok, so I'm going to try this again and it will probably be long seeing as its been over a month since I posted. Ok so first off, I will discuss some things that either piss me off or make me want to kick someone's ass. Ok so my car got its ass kicked.. or the passenger side window in particular because some jackass decided they would take the steel lid off a water meter in the ground, put it in a safeway bag and chuck it through the goddamn window. Now obviously when I came out of the bar I was just in, to discover my once beautiful window was now littered in a million pieces throughout my car.. I was upset, seeing as it happened in a lighted parking lot on a main road in beaverton of all places. However, the good news is the moron didn't steal anything that important.. and that list includes: my headset for work which was in a black zippered bag, my gym shoes.. which had my mp3 player, 24hr fitness membership card and lifting gloves, gym shirt, gym shorts.. and actually thats it. At first I didn't know they stole my gym stuff, so I really thought they were an idiot because they have no use for my headset seeing as it has no value or purpose other than at my job. Later on I found out they stole my gym clothes.. maybe they were bums who had no shoes? either way that pisses me off because now I need a new mp3 player, membership card and gloves.. plus shoes and clothes for the gym. Oh and not to mention the fact that now I have to replace the fucking window. Thank god they didn't steal my new stereo I just bought a few weeks ago, or my cd's.. ya know the actual items of value(idiots).

Ok, so onto something else.. a few days ago I was pissed off all day at work, which isn't surprising since my current job blows. Anyway, after a long day of talking on the phone to people who lack even the slightest bit of common sense, I took off and hit the gym.. which made me feel better. Then on the way home I decided to stop at safeway for a couple things.. so as I'm pulling into the parking lot, I'm waiting for this car to back out and when it does there is a car coming from the opposite direction and they are just sitting there.. so I figure hey.. maybe they were there first so I sit there for a minute to see if they pull in the spot, but they don't and continue to sit.. so I pull in the spot. Then they park on the opposite side and when the guy and girl get out, I see the girl in my mirror and she keeps looking at my car.. with a scowl. So I'm like whatever, and I get out of the car and hear her say something about taking a parking spot.. so I figure she is talking about me so they start walking up to the store and I'm walking behind and the girl keeps looking back at me, which begins to piss me off. So we get in the store and she looks back again.. so I raise my voice and ask if she has a problem. So she turns around and the two of them suddenly turn and walk down to the other end of the store. I was actually hoping she would say something at that point so I could tell her to shove it up her fucking ass because she has no right to be mad in the first place and scowling at me only pisses me off more. What, was I suppose to sit there for a few minutes and let her ponder whether or not she wanted to park there or not?? eat shit! Secondly, she didn't have her blinker on to signal she wanted to park there, nor was she advancing to the spot. Anyway, I was already in a bad mood so that didn't help any.. I think the guy she was with may have thought she was overreacting because he kind of laughed. I actually felt sorry for the guy for having to put up with her stupid ass, if they were indeed together.

Ok, so onto more positive things.. oh and by the way I had to work till 9pm on thanksgiving for fuck sake.. what a bunch of assholes for making us work that late. Ok so yeah, I went and saw the grudge a couple weeks ago and I thought it was a pretty good movie, it was pretty creepy in my opinion, however not on the psychological level like the ring. The thing I liked most is that the original japanese director directed the film so it wasn't messed up by some american guy who didn't write the story. It actually is a series, first starting off as a tv series called The Curse, and then there was the feature film in japan called JUON-the grudge in japan last year. Of course I found all of them online and downloaded them, though I haven't had time to watch all of them yet, but I happened to watch one of the tv movies and it was interesting, however it was shot on video instead of film so its not as appealing visually, but still pretty cool. Anyway, I thought the american version was pretty good besides a few minor things.

Also I just saw Team America and I'll have to say it was hilarious, I was really impressed with how they made the movie entirely with puppets.. I mean it was done really well. Plus the overall theme of the movie was funny as hell.. and the soundtrack is awesome, so I downloaded it the other day. Yeah so if you haven't seen the movie, check it out before it leaves the theater because its damn entertaining.

Alright so I'm probably forgetting something but maybe I'll actually start doing this more often so I don't have to type out a fucking short story each time, so with that I will leave and go to sleep, and will also copy this before I hit publish this time, have fun hearing me rant, later!

FUCK!

yeah so I just wrote a shitload of stuff in my blog, and when I went to hit publish post it came up with page cannot be displayed, and when I hit back all the stuff I wrote was gone, FUCK! it will have to wait now, I'm not going to sit here for all that time again, at least not yet

somewhat out of character

So anyway, yesterday I was hanging out with my friend josh and we decided to go get something to eat at baja fresh.. by the way I recommend getting the "burrito ultimo, enchilado style" if you ever go there, because it fucking rules. Anyway.. after we ate I wanted to go over to best buy across the street so I could pick up a new cd(my car's cd player blows and won't play burned cd's worth a shit) hence the reason I buy them for now. So as I was going to park, I'm suddenly stopped behind one of those "I'm going to wait for this person to pull out even though it takes for fucking ever and people are waiting to park, because I want to park 10 feet closer to the GODDAMN STORE!! kind of people" So as this stupid 40 yr old bitch is sitting there waiting, I notice that no one is even pulling out and then start wondering what the fuck she is waiting for. literally after about 2 minutes of sitting there, because I can't go around her and someone is behind me, I mash my horn down for about 15 seconds to see what happens, hell maybe she fell asleep. So she just glances in the rearview mirror and back down, and just continues sitting there, so I'm like.. you have got to be fucking kidding me! So get this.. some random person comes out of best buy and their car happens to be close to where this lady is sitting.. so they pull out and she pulls in.. not like she knew the person or anything. It was like she was just waiting, hoping someone would eventually come out that was parked close.. now the fact that there was another parking spot another 15 feet away and she could have parked there long ago pissed me off to no end. So I wait for her to park and get out of the car, and when she does I yell " hey thanks a lot lady, I'm trying to park!" She comes up and in a really smartass voice, says " yeah thanks for being so patient" So I say " You could have fucking parked right up there!!" and she throws up her hands and says something like " I'm not going to do this.. blah blah" and starts to walk away, when I lean out my window and scream "Fuck you, you stupid bitch!!" Josh started busting up because of that, and the fact that there were other people around loading their cars that started looking around. I mean, that is out of character for me to go off on some stranger, but goddamnit I don't know, the nerve.. and fact that she said I wasn't being patient after sitting there for over 2 and a half minutes made me want to ruin her shit right there. Why the hell would anyone stay patient sitting there for that long, especially when no one was even in a car about to pull out?? Has anyone had something like this happen recently? tell me about it

what the fuck

this post will be about nothing.. because in my opinion.. nothing is cool. Just like how I did nothing yesterday, that ruled. I would like to comment about something.. and I will not go into details or write an explanation to this statement: "fuck politicians.. thats right you shitcocks, you can eat my ass!" Thats about all I'll say about that. On another note, I just drank one of those "monster" energy drinks and it kicks ass.. in fact I think I will drink a couple more because my hands aren't shaking enough. I haven't wrote in this blog for a month, I guess I forgot.. or didn't care.. but most likely its a bit of both. In about 5 minutes I'm going to go pick up this girl I met awhile ago, and we are gonna hang out here at my place.. I am sure I will have a good time, maybe I can pull off an ATM with her, I guess we'll see :-) Oh and another thing.. if you don't enjoy metal, whats wrong with you? I don't get why anyone wouldn't, grow some balls and rock your fucking face off. Alright I'm off, I want whoever looks at this to write a sarcastic comment and mock me because that would kick ass, now get to it, fuckers!

no, I don't want to wake up early and go to work. no I don't want to stay at work for 9 hrs on saturday. no I don't want to waste gas driving to and from work tomorrow.. I mean today(technically). no I don't want to pay rent today. no I don't want to pay bills. no I don't want to be out of milk and cereal and various other types of food because I didn't go to the store. no I don't want to be tired in the morning. and no I will not shut up.. actually yes I will,bye

"Its Oregon"

Shut your mouth, I know where I live.. and actually NO, its not raining because its oregon, its because of the geographic location of oregon. Sorry, but have you ever just asked yourself, "why does it have to rain today?" and some dingleberry blurts out "because its oregon!" I hate that. Anyway, no I do not like the rain.. yet I also do not like extreme heat like we have been having either. The perfect day would be low 70's with a mixture of light clouds and sun.. with a little breeze.. the type of day you can walk around in a t-shirt and jeans and feel completely comfortable. I know it hasn't rained in quite awhile around here but I still hate when it does, perhaps because I've lived in this general area of the state my whole life, though some people get used to it.. and actually people who aren't from the area say they love rain. When someone says they love rain, it always confuses me, despite the fact that they usually live in a dry climate most of their life. The thing that really confuses me is when people who see plenty of rain say they love it.. I mean, whats to love? First of all, it makes outside smell weird.. at least here, also it gets everything wet! So you're always wanting to stay inside... now I don't always hang outside, but I like knowing that if I want to go outside, its not going to rain on me. Also, extended periods of rainy weather tend to make it seem gloomy, and tends to put people in a dull mood, which also sucks. Another thing that sucks is that summer always seems so short, its almost september again for fuck sake, and september is the beginning of shitty weather in my eyes anyway. I hate fall, fuck the changing color of leaves.. all they do is pile up all over and you have to clean them up. I hate the way the seasons work, why can't it be in this order: fall,spring,winter,summer.. see then there would be a break between the shitty seasons.. because fall/winter is basically 6 months of crap.. and yes it can rain a bit during spring, but at least its warm. AND lets not forget that it gets dark at 4 fucking 30! I mean, is that bullshit or what? And even though its only 4:30, it just feels like its 9, and I hate that too. I wish I was comfortable enough with my finances, so that I could leave for fall and winter and go somewhere with nicer weather. I tell ya, thats what I will be doing when I actually have the ability to, where it doesn't affect my life/job.. etc. Oh well, at least its only supposed to rain a few more days and then it will once again rain sunshine, and what perfect timing! My birthday is next weekend, and I look forward to becoming intoxicated with my best of buds. Ok, I'm done venting.. and I promise the next post will not suck quite this much.. not like anyone is reading this yet since I have yet to give people the address. I wonder if anyone will actually read this whole post.. I have a feeling people will get bored and stop, we'll see.

I like free because it is good!

Basically at this time, I've given no one my blog page address sooo.. I'm pretty much talking to myself so to speak. Anyway I'm not sure if any of you are aware of the program Bittorrent.. I would think some of you would know of it, though I only came across it because a guy I work with downloaded Doom3 with it and burned me a copy which is incredible I might add. The one thing that blows is that I don't want to play it because I need to buy more ram, and probably another graphics card while I'm at it. I don't want my gaming experience to be mediocre, so buy me some ram because my bday is on the 29th of this month! Oh, right.. now about the Bittorrent client. The program rules because there is no need to open some program and have it running in the background or whatever. You just download the program from www.bitconjurer.org/bittorrent, then go to www.suprnova.org or a similar site, but so far this one is the best.. then lookith upon the many files in the usual categories: Movies, Tv shows, Apps, Games, Anime, Comics, Music, Mac stuff, and Misc. and there is tons of shit posted daily.. actually things are constantly being uploaded. Then you just go through and click the link of what you want, and a progress window pops up and you pick where to save, blah blah blah.. and after the download is done, you don't have to, but your ranking and ability to download faster improve if you leave the window open for awhile so others can upload the same file. Anyway, its not like I'm getting paid to promote this thing.. though that would rule, I just thought it was cool, so check it out if you want.

wtf @ this shit

ehh.. I just started this today and though I would like to write something, I shall refrain.. purely because I'm tired as shit and don't really care.. one thing I will mention is that the volleyball chicks on the olympics are hot..but too bad their boobies aren't very big, oh well!